('Maybe I'm amazed at the way you’re with me all the time. Maybe I'm afraid of the way I leave you')I took a lot of things away from my ten years with my ex-partner, but the most was his loyalty to the ones he really deeply loves. To be able to keep someone you once slept with and went on vacations with and went to family parties with in your life after breaking up is a really hard thing to do, and I was terrified to do it, which is why we lasted so much longer than we should have. But here he is, still here in my life, still always a presence and a friend to me and my loved ones. When I turned 40, he proved once again his loyalty and kinship by throwing me a very unexpected, very ME surprise party. And we were already officially split at that point for almost 3 years, and he was already with his new partner, another surprise in my life, someone who I adore and I think adores me. So maybe Maybe I’m Amazed is a love song, I get it. I know Paul wrote it for the love of his life, Linda. But for me, it’s not a romantic love song, but yes, it’s a love song, a thank you song to someone who still came around after some really poor behavior on my part, someone who stuck by me through the really shittiest parts of my life, and even now into the good parts. I’m amazed someone can be that loyal a friend.
From the historical writing archive. Original date: December 1, 2015. Recovered from local source material; editorial review is still in progress.
